Rose's Pit

05/05/2026

What's uppppp. It's been some time since I posted smth here. Like 6 days. Insane. Anyway, you're probably wondering what I was up to. Nobody gives a fuck. Okay someone didn't sleep well. Hear me out tho. I was writing about a girl last time, that I was on voice call. Well. I rushed, I kinda thought she's different, it clicked online and didn't click irl. Oh Yea...but it's fine. We're still on good terms. I just drove her to the railway station. I couldn't afford to take her in for a week it turned out. But yea, I still need to figure out what I want from a relationship. I thought that she's someone that could take care of me, like, you know, that I don't have to be responsible for myself and the other person, and as much as she was saying that she can, well, she couldn't. Online? Sure, it felt like it. Irl? No, not really. And she was saying the same stuff that my ex was saying to me. Uh, happens. I still like her, just can't be with her in a relationship. Weird.
Something else that happened is my uni fucking me over every time. I went there on 2nd because the guy responsible for internships had his shift. Well. Turned out he didn't. He just put it online that he does, but the uni was closed. I want to start internships on 11th, if I can't go to him before? I'm fucked. And also I won't pass Anatomy probably.
Also, I fucking love my car and I appreciate it so much more now. It hold up so fucking well as I was speeding. I smelled the brakes but they work still the same, still great. It went 180km/h through the city on so fucking little fuel that it's insane. It was an emergency and like, fuck, fuck, I love you Vectra. Yes it need repairs constatnly, but when I need to be somewhere fast or transport something it always has it's peak car performance. Tho I need to get AC in this lady.
I want to take a break from life, honestly, or like, the life I'm living rn. I want to travel, go hang out at the lake at normal time and not fucking 10pm. I want to enjoy life and not stress about everything all the time. I know that stress is like my normal state but, fuck, please, just one care-free month. One. That's all I'm asking for. One month where I wouldn't have to worry about what I'm going to eat, if I'll be able to pay my bills, if I'm going to have fuel or if I'll live.
I need to upgrade Vectra or to buy a crazy powerful car. I want that GT86 but if anyone wants to give me a Challenger, pleasepleaseplease call me. I'd do anything to get a Challenger.
Remember people, if you ever need something and we're close? Hit me up, I'm always there for you.
~Love Rose