Rose's Pit

26/04/2026

Blegh, blegh, what the helly. What's up, it's Rose, teletransmissiting to you from the future or some shit. I dunno. I have no idea why I said that. I'm TIRED. I cleaned my flat and washed my car and, wierd online stranger person, please, drumrolls. *drumrolls*. I have hot water! And electricity! Everywhere! That's so cool! And the induction here works too! Omg Rose, that's amazing! Everything is finally coming together, right? Y-Yea....yea. Um....Rose? I think that my brain just resets every now and then. It's like I just suddenly turn off for a split second and my vision has to adjust but so slightly that I only feel that it's coming into focus but it's not enough for me to actually see unfocused at any point. But, I'll be okay!
Tomorrow I have a girl over for a bit and I'm excited bc usually I'm the one driving to people but not this time. And she sounds cool and looks cute, I don't think that it will be anything serious tho. And I'll be making carbonara for her!! so excited, hopefully I have a pot big enough for the pasta. After that I have RPGs and after that I'm meeting up with Valerie!! So cool! Finally!
On the 2nd of May tho (yes I know it's a long time from now) I'll be meeting with another girl. We're texting on discord and that's kind weird for me bc I don't use it often but honestly, getting used to it. She sounds so cool and she looks pretty and she understands me well and, you know, maybe that wil be something. We agreed that it's not going to be just a meet up like I'm used to, but a date. That's so cool! She treats me seriously and honestly? I kinda also treat her seriously! So who knows, maybe Rose will finally try again with romantic feelings after some time! She accepts my bounderies and I accepet her, we both agree that things we want are important and valid and non-negotiables are actually something that is non-negotiable (and yea, trust me, only in this chapter of my life I'm meeting people that actually get that) and we match in terms of dynamic and yea. yea. We'll see but I...I can see it working out to be honest. But I want to take it slow (and so does she!!) and just see what happens. Happy puppy. I'll make her sesame chicken and yea, yea.
I took a graphics tablet from my parents house so now I can draw digital!!! I prefer it that way to be honest, so maybe soon some slop from Rose. I also took a TV from them but I didn't take the remote so I'm stuck using it as a bigger laptop screen for now. I maybe will just *get* movies on usb drive and play it that way, but next time I'll be at their house I'll take the remote and will watch Netflix probably.
I don't know if I wrote here abt my firend's partners but now (like on Friday) I met both (like, I met one earlier and two days ago I met the other) and they are so cool! I loved watching One Piece and them explaining the lore and I loved listening to NWEBTS and arguing about star wars!!! They are so cool! And it's so cute to see them with my friend, They are such a cute lovebirds!!!
I won't pass anatomy this year. It's so fucking hard. The person that teaches us is just insane and out of 30 people in a different group, 6 passed. Another group didn't pass at all. None. 29 people failed. She's insane.

I can still see him when I close my eyes.
I can still smell his perfumes.
~Love Rose