29/05/2026
Mornings when I'm working are the worst. It's a waiting game. I text people and then gamble whether today they will text me back once they wake up at normal hour, or is today going to be the day they will stop contacting me. Today is especially bad. I fucked up. I fucked up bad. I didn't text my best friend the whole day yesterday. I was just confused by the way they treated me but I just, I think I had that coming. I don't know. I just wanted to do anything for her and there was nothing I could do. And I just went to work, chilled a bit at my house and then did stuff. It felt too much, then nice, then I remembered my best friend and needed to sober up because bad mood and that stuff? not a good mix. I want to be better. I want to change. I want to be a nice, sweet girl that just looks tough. Sure, all the stuff is nice from time to time but if I could only just sell it or give them away to someone I can trust with them. Will she forgive me? Will my best friends forgive me? Will my date forgive me? Please someone text me back. I don't want to be alone. I'm so scared. I'm so fucking scared.
~Love Rose